Originally Posted by phoray
I sided with Kenny. Afterwards, I felt sick at all that transpired because of that choice. I regretted it. At the same time, I would honestly make the decision again. It was a hard choice, it was the correct choice for survival with the information I had. And there was the potential I murdered someone with a chance for life. That choice will linger. It will haunt me (Lee). And it should haunt him/me. It'll also haunt Kenny and he was 100% behind it. Kenny will always hate himself. He even keeps looking to Katjaa to see if she still loves what he's becoming. (After the Duck/Shawn choice, her look causes him to offer a ride to Macon. Also, in the store after he talks to you about the choice, there is a long glance between he and her. She knows what he's wrestling with and he is relieved to know she hasn't turned her back on him or judged him for his choices.)
The rationalization and consolation he seeks from Lee for his decisions will always just be something that keeps him from putting a bullet in his own brain (second to a living family.) In a world where the apocalypse ended and normalcy returned, I can see Kenny becoming either a drunk or killing himself because his family is now safe and don't directly need him. I honestly do.
Why do I think Kenny regrets despite all his bark that he's making the right decisions?
He sincerely apologizes to Lilly for what he "is about to do" so to speak, before he does the act. Some people would say sorry isn't enough, and it won't be to Lilly... But he apologized before, not after, and his tone of voice was very sincere to me. The look on his face after he does it, he seems to be shocked even at himself from his own actions. HE says/does these things whether you side with him or not the entire game, which means this is the true him. There's an inner battle in him, there, that is raging just as much in him as ourselves/Lee. He's far more complex a character than Lilly, although emotionally, I totally get her thoughts processes about the decision and for leaving me to die afterward on the fence. I wish the next episode would take that into account, with perhaps a deepening of her character as she considers herself and what she now knows to be capable of; cold blooded vengeance. Larry, apparently, never rethinks his humanity after leaving me to die, totally rationalizing/absorbing it and completely unapologetic. In epi 3, She should be shocked at her own feelings about leaving him to die if she were a complex enough character. Unfortunately, following this forum has told me about the show/comic book series and I worry she'll be going poof soon.
I got that impression from him, as well. (I also sided with him in the meat locker). I do believe that it was the morally wrong choice to make - but I try to remember that we are living in the zombie apocalypse, and the knowledge that ALL of the dead come back (even if it's not a confirmed fact) is pretty much a "game changer". If this piece of evidence IS true, we are going to have to reevaluate methods and standards for life-saving procedures and for the handling of the recently deceased. (An example might be putting a limit on CPR attempts, instead of performing it until a doctor gives confirmation of death. Another example will be "abandoning" funeral practices that aim to keep the body intact).
We feel guilt because as of now, these are not accepted cultural practices. Sometimes survival demands, though, that culture change and adapt.