As soon as Carley started tearing Lilly a new one, I knew this was going to get really horrible really fast. I even saw her reach for the gun. But still, completely earthshaking since half an hour earlier I decided there was no way I was losing Carley, my second favorite character, no matter what. And then WHAM.
But my third favorite character, Kaatja, she broke my heart so deep because I had to watch her suffer and die in slow motion carrying the burdens of her son and her husband's despair.
I've always kind of liked her, but she proved to be such a total badass at the beginning of Episode 2, especially if you try to feed her while she's busy saving lives. That scene in the hallway where she's held hostage in Episode 2 I realized how much I desperately wanted to keep her alive and how willing I was to kill to save her.
She's the person I told my secret to other than Clementine...I even asked her to step aside and away from Kenny so I could tell her in private. And then she was so sweet and forgiving and supportive.
All of that just exploded on me when I realized she was gone and she wouldn't even let me fight to protect her.