It all depends on the person and how the people around them deal with life. I find it funny how every once in a while someone mentions they don't want to kill people for fear of losing their 'Humanity'. Personally I think that is completely silly. People do not become somehow less human just because they have to deal with death.
There is a very large difference between dispatching someone/something when justified with good reasons, and when you do not have that justification. What is important is if the person has thoroughly considered the possible options, and after considering everything to the best of their ability, makes a decision.
The philosophy behind your actions are as important as the actions themselves. Unfortunately, most people go through life without thinking these things through ahead of time. Ask yourself "what would I do if..." on a regular basis. Do it with the hard questions, put yourself in hypothetical situations and decide on a response. For example: you are in a car at a stoplight, you look in your rearview mirror and see several men walking up behind your car with a heavy object like a brick or a shovel. What do you do and why? Note that this is a common tactic for car-jacking. They throw the brick through your window, then take your car possibly wounding or killing you in the process.
There is a saying which has been around for a fairly long time. "Victory loves preparation". Being prepared means not just physical things you have in place, but mental preparation as well. You should know what you are going to do already because you have a plan which generally covers these situations. You react faster because your mind has dealt with the problem and is prepared with a ready solution. That is how people survive.
So that is what I would cultivate in Clementine if I were Lee. I would sit down and talk with her about the hard stuff. I would explain why I did the things I did. I would go over planning ahead of time and already having your important decisions mapped out. My Clem would be ready, able, and without doubts. She would react firmly and decisively when needed and still have no trouble sleeping because her actions would be justified and prepared ahead of time.
For example, I have already decided how to deal with potential criminals. I give everyone one chance. I treat them with respect and decently, Until they prove they are not worthy of that respect. Attempting to kill or wound my group or myself is one thing which instantly causes them to lose that respect. So when that happened with the group at the dairy, I knew exactly what had to be done. And I was mentally prepared to do it.
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