I will admit I really was irritated by Ben and his lack of confidence in handling himself. Also the fact he was responsible for Carley, Kat and Ducks deaths really made me upset at him.. But I thought about something, he is just a 100% scared as hell teenager that has survived because of our group. If he had been alone there is no doubt in my mind he would have been killed already... I really understand why he is dysfunctional in the ZA. I mean think about it, you are a teenager everyone in the group is mad at you for screw ups, your parents are dead and everyone else you knew in your life is dead as well. You have a great feeling of no self worth and none seems to care about you. I understand that in an apocalyptic setting ppl are going to be more concerned about living than feelings but he is in a stage of his life where all these mixed emotions are running wild and he hasnt matured yet to think logically. This is how I see him, and I couldn't let him go when I had the chance, I couldn't allow one of group members to die especially a kid/teenager.
I mean really would you let a 16-18 year old kid die just because of his mistakes??? The fact of the matter is he will have to live the rest of his life knowing his actions allowed for 3 people to die even though he was thinking about helping the group. I think thats punishment enough. I know many of us in real life couldnt handle that, I know I couldnt.
Also the fact he wanted to tell Kenny that it was his fault actually made me respect him a little more, he had the guts to tell the man it was his fault. I dont know if many of us could do that.
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