Considering moving out at the end of this year of uni.
I already was aware that its going to cost me a lot to do so. I probably need to earn about £600 a month post tax to make it really feasable.
I currently only earn £240 per month, without tax, (since I'm a student and earn less than £3000 a year, as I only work one day).
That being said though, if I could get a decent job, and maybe find someone to share a room with, (best friend did pitch the idea last year when I crashed at uni. He probably wouldn't follow through with it though...), someone I could trust wouldn't just bail on me, then it could work out.
You see I realised now, that I am never going to "grow up" as it were; to never find true independance, nor the drive to persue what I want in life if I stay at home all the time.
I love my family, and I like being at home, but I realise that I don't have any of my own space, nor the neutral respect I need to really do stuff.
I have to fit MY life around my families, and that is totally killing my focus.
What I need is isolation.
In the first year of uni, I was lonely and I hated the people on the floor I was in, (noisy idiotic food stealers! >:/), but the concept of having my own place to do whatever I wanted without someone butting in was just FANTASTIC. I loved it.
Sure, I might have saved money by commuting, but I think in my heart, this whole university thing wasn't really going to work out.
My old man complains a lot about no-one doing anything, and that "IN MY HOUSE, YOU DO WHAT I SAY OR YOU GO LIVE SOMEWHERE ELSE" and I think he's right.
Respectfully I have to leave. I have to stop depending on others, its unsustainable, and it is going to eventually drive me crazy.
I'm not a sponge or a slacker. I put a lot more effort into uni and work than most of my people my age do, but I lack the drive to apply that learning.
And thats what I hate about uni. Sure I learn a lot of knowledge, but I feel its wasted without the means of application.
I know HOW to do the essay or a report, but why should I need to prove I can make an essay or a report, when I have already proven I CAN already make one?
Its boring and dull, the repetition of uni work, and I think that even if I have a degree, it wouldn't give me that much more leverage over anyone else.
After all, work places want to know what EXPERIENCE and what SKILLS you have that you can apply to the workplace.
My best friend seems to be doing great with his new job. Working really hard, which funnily enough, is not like him.
Well not like his appraoch to uni and schoolwork.
He was a "slacker" like me. We do a lot of learning outside that curriculum circle, stuff we could use.
I've seen him put more effort into changing a DS case and fixing his laptops, than I ever did when he did his A levels.
He got D's, but he's certainly not stupid. He's way smarter than me.
Ideally if I move, I want to move closer to him. Sounds odd, but he's my best friend, the person who knows me 100%, and I would feel better and more driven if I could talk and meet up with him more.
Sure I have my family now, but its different. There is a hierarchy there thats restricting.
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With Great Power Comes Great Resposibility.
My Uncle Ben taught me that.
He also makes great rice!
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Originally Posted by coolsome
Does TTG need an official Geisha? cos I could go to Geisha school!
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