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Originally Posted by Rock114
I had no ill will toward Ben when I let him drop. I felt terrible for it afterward, so much so I was practically begging the game that no one would ask about Ben when we got back. The main reasons I did it were because:
1. I didn't actually think he could be saved. I thought he would be killed somehow, immediately after I pulled him up.
2. The walkers were practically to us. I didn't think there was even time to pull him up without putting myself and the rest of the group in severe danger.
3. He gave his consent. He faced his end bravely, and was willing to sacrifice himself so that everyone else could live.
After getting back to the house I almost rewound to try and save him because I felt so terrible. But that was on my canon save, where I stick with my choices no matter what.
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Yes. All of this.
...there was a fourth factor me though, which makes me feel like a terrible person. I knew that Ben's death would have been the smoothest way to solve the Kenny/Ben conflict. The group was barely holding together at that point. I didn't think it could survive those two coexisting in the same space. I agree with all of the reasons listed above, but this fourth one is the dark secret and probably the most brutally intentioned thing I've done in this series. It'll probably follow me all the way through episode 5...
But in the end, though, my errors are my own. Ben's are his, and he finally found redemption for them in this episode. He died as someone I could finally respect...someone whose last moments were true, altruistic heroism.